Well, I decided to take a break for a little bit from weighing in, keeping track of what I eat, etc. Didn't expect it to be this long, but here I am again! I am still smoke free and only had a few more instances where I've insisted on having a cigarette while drinking. However, I haven't had one since the night of our Halloween Party (10/27)....so, it's been almost a month! I am amazed at how I've seemed to "maintain" my weight while in the process of quitting. I feel like I've gained a ton of weight, but apparently just a few pounds. Now I really want to concentrate on getting back on track.
Amanda has joined the swim team at the YMCA, so we've become members. I'll be working out while she's at her practices 2-3 times a week. Last night was my 1st of 2 orientations for the weight machines. I'll be doing weights and a little bit of cardio while I'm there and still doing the treadmill at home on other days. Hopefully the weights will help with toning and burning more fat. :o)
Today's Weight: 137.8
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
Weight: 135.4
This has got to stop! Another gain....but at least it was only .2 this time. Anyway....made it through the holiday weekend....
Didn't get too much exercise in, but we will try to get moving again this week. :o)
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Well, this past Saturday I had another "episode" with the whole not smoking thing....had a few drags off of Cathy's cigarette after trying to "borrow" a cigarette from someone else. I had managed to be talked into NOT lighting that one and putting it back. Anyway, needless to say...I still tried to have a smoke and had a few drags off of Cathy's...which wasn't even any good since it was a menthol. I originally took a few drags from Cathy because Mike was having a cigar...which everyone said wasn't the same thing...I think that's bologna and tried to argue my side. I did however have wwwaaayyy too much to drink and just didn't care at that point. The last few things that I remember were arguing a little bit with Cathy, then sitting down for a while out back with everyone, then I went inside and grabbed my debit card, drivers license and cell phone...I was going to walk to the store and buy a pack a smokes. Really dumb! Needless to say...I did not end up trying to walk up there, however I remember going into my room crying and then waking up about 5:30 a.m. and everyone was gone. The other bad part of it...I remember other things happening, but do not know if they really happened or if I dreamt that they happened. (Yes...I am still having the all tooooo realistic dreams and it's starting to bother me. ) I thought I remember slamming a bunch of doors when I went in the house and then into my room for the night, then I also thought that I was talking to someone while I was crying and kept telling them that I didn't know why I was crying. (The only thing that I can think of why I was crying was because I was upset with myself...) Anyway, the next morning I woke up feeling a bit ill and feeling terribly stupid, embarrassed and confused. I asked Mike about stuff, but he had no clue....he didn't remember much of anything anyway. (I do know that I cried for real and not just dreamt it because when I woke up there were wadded up kleenex in the bed.) I just wish I knew what really happened, what I did or didn't do. Oh well...I am sure it will surface somewhere...
So anyway, onto these realistic dreams.....I actually stopped taking the medicine for 2 days to see if it would help or make a difference and I couldn't tell. However, I started taking it again as I was afraid that I would get a craving. I don't think we'll be taking the medicine too much longer because we're both doing good. Besides, Mike hasn't taken his in over a week or so anyway. We'll see....
We'll just see how these next couple of weekends go with the drinking.....however, I will probably always wish that I could just be a "social smoker"....nothing else, be done with it after that night, etc...hmmmm..... wonder if I could have cloves or something that was like a cigar....that's a thought.... ;o) LOL!
This has got to stop! Another gain....but at least it was only .2 this time. Anyway....made it through the holiday weekend....
Didn't get too much exercise in, but we will try to get moving again this week. :o)
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Well, this past Saturday I had another "episode" with the whole not smoking thing....had a few drags off of Cathy's cigarette after trying to "borrow" a cigarette from someone else. I had managed to be talked into NOT lighting that one and putting it back. Anyway, needless to say...I still tried to have a smoke and had a few drags off of Cathy's...which wasn't even any good since it was a menthol. I originally took a few drags from Cathy because Mike was having a cigar...which everyone said wasn't the same thing...I think that's bologna and tried to argue my side. I did however have wwwaaayyy too much to drink and just didn't care at that point. The last few things that I remember were arguing a little bit with Cathy, then sitting down for a while out back with everyone, then I went inside and grabbed my debit card, drivers license and cell phone...I was going to walk to the store and buy a pack a smokes. Really dumb! Needless to say...I did not end up trying to walk up there, however I remember going into my room crying and then waking up about 5:30 a.m. and everyone was gone. The other bad part of it...I remember other things happening, but do not know if they really happened or if I dreamt that they happened. (Yes...I am still having the all tooooo realistic dreams and it's starting to bother me. ) I thought I remember slamming a bunch of doors when I went in the house and then into my room for the night, then I also thought that I was talking to someone while I was crying and kept telling them that I didn't know why I was crying. (The only thing that I can think of why I was crying was because I was upset with myself...) Anyway, the next morning I woke up feeling a bit ill and feeling terribly stupid, embarrassed and confused. I asked Mike about stuff, but he had no clue....he didn't remember much of anything anyway. (I do know that I cried for real and not just dreamt it because when I woke up there were wadded up kleenex in the bed.) I just wish I knew what really happened, what I did or didn't do. Oh well...I am sure it will surface somewhere...
So anyway, onto these realistic dreams.....I actually stopped taking the medicine for 2 days to see if it would help or make a difference and I couldn't tell. However, I started taking it again as I was afraid that I would get a craving. I don't think we'll be taking the medicine too much longer because we're both doing good. Besides, Mike hasn't taken his in over a week or so anyway. We'll see....
We'll just see how these next couple of weekends go with the drinking.....however, I will probably always wish that I could just be a "social smoker"....nothing else, be done with it after that night, etc...hmmmm..... wonder if I could have cloves or something that was like a cigar....that's a thought.... ;o) LOL!
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Weight: 135.2
I really felt the gain coming on this week. I'm not sure if I've been eating too much because of the not smoking or if it's just that I am eating too many things with points. I don't think I'm eating too much more than before, it's just that I am eating different things....not making good choices. The last few days I have been "shopping" for new recipes. I think I am getting bored with eating the same things over and over, which is why I'm not making very good food choices. Even though alot of the things are only a few points....it's a few here, a few there and it all adds up.
I've been walking, maybe just not enough anymore. I've had the treadmill since mid-January and never tried the programs on there. So, the last two nights I did one of the programs. It was nice to have a bit of a change. The program does incorporate some running, which is a big change for me. I was actually able to run. :o) I do need to invest in a good sports bra though, it was a little rough on my boobs....LOL!
I really felt the gain coming on this week. I'm not sure if I've been eating too much because of the not smoking or if it's just that I am eating too many things with points. I don't think I'm eating too much more than before, it's just that I am eating different things....not making good choices. The last few days I have been "shopping" for new recipes. I think I am getting bored with eating the same things over and over, which is why I'm not making very good food choices. Even though alot of the things are only a few points....it's a few here, a few there and it all adds up.
I've been walking, maybe just not enough anymore. I've had the treadmill since mid-January and never tried the programs on there. So, the last two nights I did one of the programs. It was nice to have a bit of a change. The program does incorporate some running, which is a big change for me. I was actually able to run. :o) I do need to invest in a good sports bra though, it was a little rough on my boobs....LOL!
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Weight: 133.6
I honestly didn't think I was going to lose anything this week, but I'll take the .4 loss. I didn't do very well over the weekend. I know I say that every week, but this time was a little bit different. On Saturday, I just couldn't stop eating the snacks. I think that's all I did was eat.... Part of it was actually being hungry at first, but the other part I think was for something to do other than smoke. Then Sunday, had cake & ice cream, etc.
I've been doing well with the whole not smoking thing. Friday was the first time I drank since I quit smoking. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Now on Saturday...it was the first time I had been around anyone that smokes. Seeing people do it and smelling it was a whole different ballgame. I'll be able to handle it though. However I have a confession....I had a cigarette late Saturday night. I convinced Bill to let me have one just to look at....and I did look at it for about 45 minutes...then my curiosity just got to the best of me. I wanted to know if it would taste as good as I remember it tasting while drinking or if it would be gross. Sooooo.....I finally lit it up (I asked Mike first, don't think he was really happy about it but said to make my own choice). It was GROSS! I had about 4 drags off of it and held it the rest of the time and then put it out. The taste was just not appealing, which is what I had hoped for.... :o)
Now the weird thing....In the last week or so, I have been having these very realistic dreams. Each day when I get up I have to think about if something really happened or not. I also find myself dreaming about me or Mike smoking and then fighting with each other about it. Not sure what's up with that. It's just weird to have so many realistic dreams, or at least I think it is.
Back to the diet....I've been doing okay other than weekends and I've been walking on the treadmill, except for this past weekend. Anyway....one day at a time....
I honestly didn't think I was going to lose anything this week, but I'll take the .4 loss. I didn't do very well over the weekend. I know I say that every week, but this time was a little bit different. On Saturday, I just couldn't stop eating the snacks. I think that's all I did was eat.... Part of it was actually being hungry at first, but the other part I think was for something to do other than smoke. Then Sunday, had cake & ice cream, etc.
I've been doing well with the whole not smoking thing. Friday was the first time I drank since I quit smoking. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Now on Saturday...it was the first time I had been around anyone that smokes. Seeing people do it and smelling it was a whole different ballgame. I'll be able to handle it though. However I have a confession....I had a cigarette late Saturday night. I convinced Bill to let me have one just to look at....and I did look at it for about 45 minutes...then my curiosity just got to the best of me. I wanted to know if it would taste as good as I remember it tasting while drinking or if it would be gross. Sooooo.....I finally lit it up (I asked Mike first, don't think he was really happy about it but said to make my own choice). It was GROSS! I had about 4 drags off of it and held it the rest of the time and then put it out. The taste was just not appealing, which is what I had hoped for.... :o)
Now the weird thing....In the last week or so, I have been having these very realistic dreams. Each day when I get up I have to think about if something really happened or not. I also find myself dreaming about me or Mike smoking and then fighting with each other about it. Not sure what's up with that. It's just weird to have so many realistic dreams, or at least I think it is.
Back to the diet....I've been doing okay other than weekends and I've been walking on the treadmill, except for this past weekend. Anyway....one day at a time....
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Week 20!
Cant' believe I've been doing this blog & weighing in now for 20 weeks and have been going back and forth between the SAME 10 POUNDS!! That sucks.....
Weight: 134
One pound gain, could have been worse....
Walked last night- 35 minutes
On a happy note, I'm still "smoke free".....it's been almost 48 hours!!
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Breakfast:
WW French Vanilla Smoothie made w/ skim milk
1 banana
Lunch:
Taco/fajita salad- shredded lettuce, fresh pico de galo, fat-free cheese, chicken w/ fajita seasoning & topped w/ fat-free ranch dressing (made a salad out of last night's leftover dinner)
Chocolate Fat-free, Sugar-free pudding made w/ skim milk
Snack:
Blue Bunny Health-Smart fat-free, sugar-free fudge bar (0 points)
Weight: 134
One pound gain, could have been worse....
Walked last night- 35 minutes
On a happy note, I'm still "smoke free".....it's been almost 48 hours!!
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Breakfast:
WW French Vanilla Smoothie made w/ skim milk
1 banana
Lunch:
Taco/fajita salad- shredded lettuce, fresh pico de galo, fat-free cheese, chicken w/ fajita seasoning & topped w/ fat-free ranch dressing (made a salad out of last night's leftover dinner)
Chocolate Fat-free, Sugar-free pudding made w/ skim milk
Snack:
Blue Bunny Health-Smart fat-free, sugar-free fudge bar (0 points)
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
"Quit Day"
Well, today has gone well...haven't had a cigarette since last night. :o) It's actually a little bit easier than I imagined. I think about each time I "would have" lit one up...but I don't think I've necessarily "craved" one. This morning did have it's challenge....I had to be out at Wright City Middle School to set up a table for work to hand out information at the teacher's workshop day. Anyway....I was in the car driving longer than I normally would be on a regular drive to work. Then had to drive from there to work later in the morning....more driving. Being in the car that long by myself, I would have normally had at least 3 cigarettes for each way! However, I managed to make the drive without and I was just fine. I even stopped at the gas station on the way back to get gas & a soda....I did not buy any cigarettes!! :o)
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Eating....it's going okay....I used some points today, but that had nothing to do with not being able to smoke. It was just what I chose to eat today & tonight. Anyway, I figure from this weekend and part of last week, I pretty much screwed up this week. We'll start fresh tomorrow after I weigh in to see the damage that I've done.... :o(
I did walk last night for 25 minutes and tonight for 35 minutes.
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FYI- This also marks my 82nd post......the same number as on my other blog....and I've had this one for less time. Funny huh???? (Just thought I'd share that) :o)
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Eating....it's going okay....I used some points today, but that had nothing to do with not being able to smoke. It was just what I chose to eat today & tonight. Anyway, I figure from this weekend and part of last week, I pretty much screwed up this week. We'll start fresh tomorrow after I weigh in to see the damage that I've done.... :o(
I did walk last night for 25 minutes and tonight for 35 minutes.
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FYI- This also marks my 82nd post......the same number as on my other blog....and I've had this one for less time. Funny huh???? (Just thought I'd share that) :o)
Monday, August 13, 2007
So, the weekend was not so good as far as sticking to "keeping on track"... Same old story, different weekend...although yesterday wasn't bad, I just didn't walk like I wanted to.
Today has been okay so far. Hopefully I'll be motivated enough to walk tonight.
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In about 4 or so hours (depending on what time I make it to bed), I will smoke my last cigarette... I'm gonna do whatever it takes to really make this a success. I hope that Mike is able to stick with it as well, it will just be easier for each of us if the other one doesn't give in. I find that I give in way too easy with "bad foods" and I hope that I will not be that way about smoking. If I can make it until this weekend, then the real test will come.....when I will have a few drinks. We shall see....just have to deal with it one day at a time....
Today has been okay so far. Hopefully I'll be motivated enough to walk tonight.
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In about 4 or so hours (depending on what time I make it to bed), I will smoke my last cigarette... I'm gonna do whatever it takes to really make this a success. I hope that Mike is able to stick with it as well, it will just be easier for each of us if the other one doesn't give in. I find that I give in way too easy with "bad foods" and I hope that I will not be that way about smoking. If I can make it until this weekend, then the real test will come.....when I will have a few drinks. We shall see....just have to deal with it one day at a time....
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